Good Monday Morning,

It is the start of another week, another wonderful day of life. Today I’m writing about a recent experience that brought me a bit more clarity and consciousness.

I came down to Atlanta for a out-patient procedure to fix an issue in my heart that was causing A-Fib, basically part of my heart was beating triple time, which caused some other issues. I didn’t consider it life threatening, but it was life diminishing, meaning I wasn’t able to do all I wanted when I wanted. J Medication was not controlling the issue, so this procedure was the next best option.

The procedure is routine, and I would be fine afterwards. But, we know the best laid plans sometimes take a life of their own, very different from what was projected or expected. This was my experience. The procedure went well, the irritated culprit was found and summarily dismissed. However, there was a nick or scratch in my heart wall that happened during the procedure and started bleeding; A rare occurrence, but not unknown.

So, back to the surgery room to have a drain put in to drain off the blood, again relatively easy routine procedure.  I surprised us all by choosing that time to stop breathing. The team went into action, the anesthesiologist had just arrived back and intubated me, getting my breathing back. All this I learned after the fact, however, I knew something was wrong at the time.  I had been seeing visions of beautifully colored auras, it was nice and interesting. I even remember commenting to someone (maybe just in my head) what a wonderful display I was seeing. Then, all of a sudden, this black cloud appeared and started growing larger and moving towards me, blocking out all the beautiful colors.  I knew immediately that this was DEATH, and I did NOT want it. I felt sure I was speaking, yelling, out loud for all my loved ones and God to help me push it back, that I wasn’t ready. I felt the help coming and we pushed it back, holding death off a while longer.

Now, many of you know that my birthday is Wednesday, and I’ll be 69.

I’ve really had a wonderful life, experiencing more than most people ever dream of. I am most grateful for my life and the experiences I’ve had thus far.  But I also held in my mind that I’d live to 120 in order to do the many more things that are on my list. This was a real wake-up call to me to get on with my business and quit using excuses that slow my progress.

We each have a finite amount of time on this earth, and a purpose for being here. A life that we can live full of joy, peace, happiness, wonder and service to others.  This is our birthright, regardless of our circumstances, this is ours. But, we must choose to live this life, to take advantage of opportunities, to listen to our spirit and turn up the volume on this life we would love.  It is ours, but we need to reach out and take it.

I am turning up my volume now, I know the life I want is here for me, that I’m already living it, and can have more, be more, do more, teach more, help more, give more. The abundance is there for me, as it is for everyone. I am so thankful that I was in the right place at the right time, with the right people to have this near-death, and recovery experience.

The anesthesiologist came by to see me Sat. morning after the traumatic Friday, and filled in many details for me. He then asked could he bring in his 5 year old son to meet the woman who’s life he’d saved.  What a treat for me to visit with this adorable little boy and his father; And to be alive due to his skill, knowledge and efforts.

This was not something I’d wish on others, as the traumatic experience was also painful, and debilitating. But what I learned!!!  Oh, what I learned was immeasurable.

This is much longer than my usual posts, but I wanted to keep my readers informed. I will be hosting a webinar on Friday afternoon about Building Your Dreams. I’d love it if you would attend.  Message me, or email me for more information.

To Living Your Dream,

Judy